I Miss U, Aaliyah

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you (Said I'm needin you)
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine (Is your heart still mine)
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

Aaliyah - I Miss You

As of today it will be 10 years since American, R&B singer, Aaliyah Dana Haughton past away. Even now I can’t believe she is gone from this earth. I will never forget the day when I found out about this terrible tragedy. It all started when I went to Wal-Mart with my mom I was so happy because I finally had enough money to buy Aaliyah latest album Aaliyah (which became her last). Upon purchasing the CD, the cashier noticed I had a bought an her CD. He shockingly informed me that Aaliyah had died from a plane crash.

Of course I was like no freaking way. Quickly went home and got on my computer to check to see if this was true or not. Surely enough he was right. Aaliyah was gone. I cried all night while listening to the her CD that I purchased only some hours ago. It felt like I lost my best friend.

About 2 years after her death, My cousin, brother, and I went to the mall to do our own Christmas shopping. I walked past a Urban store right in the window was a sweater of a airbrushed picture of a Aaliyah on it. It so real. At that very moment I near I wanted. I ended up spending half of my Christmas money buying that sweater. My dad was almost about to take it back, but luck was on my side. Aaliyah was one who inspired to become a singer. I truly do miss her. Love you, Baby Girl <3



Ms. Bartender

Have you ever seen a movie scene where the bartender is twirling a bottle of Vodka in the air, then the next thing you know your special drink is right in from of you, but your too busy coming down from the aftershocks. Well, I used want to be that wonderful bartender. Yes, I dreamed of becoming bartender. I just love watching bartenders do those amazing tricks without making one mistake. Um, do I would be a bartender who doesn’t drink alcohol. It would be work if some came up to the bar and asked me: “What’s your favorite drink?” *Embarrassed* Sorry, hon I don’t think.

Even do, I don’t drink there are some alcoholic drinks that sound and look pleasing. I prefer to make and drink the virgin version or non-alcoholic drinks. I believe you can have just as much fun with drinking an alcoholic beverage. If I ever decide to open my own bar I will have both types of beverages. Some of my favorites are Strawberry Daiquiris, Pina Coda, Muddy Water, and Fuzzy Peach.

You can say, I’m drawn into color drinks, but what really interest me is the tricks. Like using fire to change the color of a drink, throwing, joggling bottles. I’m pretty sure it takes lots of practice to do that. That’s what thought I wanted to do when I grew up, but it might be a side job or hobby.

Female Fighting Trios

While watching Heroic Trio on Netflix (haven’t seen this movie in awhile) got me thinking about some of my favorite trio, kick butt, fighting female groups that I enjoyed watching while I was younger and now.

I got to start with Heroic Trio since it inspired me to make this post. You have Wonder Woman (Shadow Fox) , Invisible Woman (Number 3), and Thief Catcher (Mercy). These lovely characters are played by the late Anita Mui (We dearly miss you.) Michelle Yeoh, and Maggie Cheung. It came in 1993, but probably didn’t watch it until 1998 or 1999. Whenever, I saw it, I fell completely in love. The martial arts was amazing, but that’s not why I like it so much. The story flows and connects. For, example Ching (IW) and Tung (SF) near each other when they were younger. How? Each of them have a flashback dream of climbing up a mountain to be accepted, but only Ching makes it meaning Tung leaves to never been again until adulthood. Then Chat (Mercy) joins she can relate to Ching about being controlled by the evil master. Three women from different walks of live join together and look sexy while kicking butt.

Next up will be, Cleopatra 2525. In this science fiction TV show you have Cleopatra (Cleo), Helen (Hel), and Sarge (Rose). Played by Jennifer Sky, Gina Torres, and Victoria Pratt. I don’t remember too much about this show, because I moved and forgot about it. So, I didn’t get a chance to what the whole first season and didn’t know there was a second season. I just remember three women fighting and traveling to different times. Mmm, I’ll see if Netflix has this.

Then, you have the Powerpuff Girls, I remember sometimes waking up early or in the afternoon watching this cartoon. Sugar, Spice, and Everything Nice…these were the chosen ingredients to make…Blossom, Bubbles, and Buttercup. Once again each one of them had a different personality. Blossom was the leader, bossy chic, Bubbles the cute, innocent, but “inside was tough”, and Buttercup was the toughest fighter always ready to pick a fight, but also had a hidden soft side. Personally, Buttercup was my favorite, the Bubbles because those are the two I can most relate to. Then there were times I wanted to be Blossom.

I’ll end with Charlie’s Angel, I’m talking about the semi new Charlie’s Angels. Natalie, Dylan, and Alex. Portrayed by Carmen Diaz, Lucy Liu, Drew Berrymore. They made Charlie’s Angels more modern. Once again you have three woman kicking butt while looking sexy. I still give my thanks to the original Charlie’s  Angels. Just found out there’s a new Charlie’s Angels TV series coming out this fall. New Angels!

　

2011 Charlie's Angels

　

Lingerie Part I : Tights, Knee Highs, Stockings, Pantyhose





Tights

This next post is kind of off the radar, but after reading Amaya Radjani’s post series about rediscovering the sexiness in her, and listing the sexy things she likes. That is not the reason why I’m making a post about lingerie. She got me thinking about my own childhood, that even today I still do. So, I’ve decided to do my own series about lingerie that connects with me.

Secondly, Amaya post defines the difference between stockings and pantyhose. Which is something I’ve always wondered about, but that me ponder even more for two reasons:

1. “Hey, remember when you had to wear…”
2. “Then why does my mom call pantyhose stockings…IDK…Wait…I’m sooooo confused!”

Knee High Stockings

Knee High Socks

You will mostly see me wear pantyhose or which my mother would call stockings to Church, I first stared off wearing tights just like my younger sister. To me tights were a little easier to put on than pantyhose because they were tight and you didn’t have to worry about ripping or what my folks would say “Gurl, Don’t you put a run in my stockings!”Sometimes I was allowed to wear knee highs, I still have a pair  somewhere in my drawer.

Stockings

Pantyhose

Back in elementary and middle a lot of the girls would wear pantyhose under their skirts for fashion wise or if they had P.E. an still wanted to participate. I wanted to wear mine’s to school, but that wouldn’t workout well with my parents. In choir it was required to wear hoses. I mostly believe that the only reason why I wear pantyhose for Church is to cover up. Anyways, I do find tights, knee highs, stockings, and pantyhose to be fascinating and sexy.








  　

Overly… Obsessed…Constantly…Watching

Have you ever had that moment where your watching a movie, remote in hand, and your finger is stuck on the rewind or fast forward button. Hmm, or maybe you watch your favorite movie one day, and then the next day. If that’s you, your not alone.

I have this habit of watching movies over and over, but with one particular movie it doesn’t matter what time or what day it is. I will just simply sit there and watch it. Ooooo, I wonder what movie?” Drum rolls, please.” Last of the Mohicans. Why?

I’m sitting here right now watching it as I write this. Waiting patiently for Alice to decide if she’s going to live or die? Of course I know the answer to that question. Let’s rewind it back to the beginning. See, I’m doing it again. I always question myself “When was the first time I watched Last of the Mohicans?” and “Why do you all of sudden love this movie?” I’ll answer that in another blog post.

The real question is this: Is it wrong to rewatch the movie you love so much?

I know to others it may seem annoying, but what if your watching it privately by yourself. Then some comes up to ask “What are watching?” “Last of the M…..” “Your watching that movie…..”“I know, its been awhile.” The conversation goes along that line. Personally, I don’t see nothing wrong with watching you favorite movie over and over.
I know reality from fantasy.

What do you think?

Attractiveness to Asia

Not too many people know this, but my admiration of Asia began when I was between four-six years old. By the way I'm not talking about the country yet. That didn't start until I got into seventh grade. What I'm trying to say is that since I was little I found Asian men to be attractive. I don’t why or even when this started.

At the age of 4-6 : Mortal Kombat! I secretly fell madly in love with the character Liu Kang. I was excited to hear that the game franchise was being made into a movie, and this is how my curiosity began with actor Robin Shou.

At age of 7-9: Sitting in front of the TV, watching Food Network, waiting patiently for East meets West with Ming Tsai to come. Awe, Ming Tsai. Gawking over him as he teaches the world how to make a delicious Asian meal. Watching the sweat drip down his forehead, his silky streaming voice…Oops my bad back to reality. I don’t exactly remember, but I think this was the age group I began watching Mighty Morphin Power Rangers. Even do Tommy Oliver was my first love, my second love was cutie Adam Park.

Would it be a offensive that I find Bruce Lee to be sexy? From there to now I still find Asian men to be attractive. Feminine or masculine it doesn’t matter to me. You catch me looking at Kpop star idols like Rain, Se7en, 1TYM , Taebin. This was the “second wave” of attractiveness to Asian men. Lets not for the visual kei bands like Dir en Grey before today.

To concluded my story: Is it wrong to be attractive to someone at an early age?

Putting the Pieces Back Together

“Shards of me too sharp to put back together”

-Breathe No More - Evanescence



" This skirt looks similar to what I had."

 Skirts, scooters, shorts. Hmm, I remember those types of clothing, but that was long ago. On second thought that was before I lost “myself” when I was a little girl back in elementary school. Someone of you may not know what the hell I’m talking about! I’m here to tell you. Lets go time traveling. Picture this: A little innocent African American girl wearing glasses chasing her friends on the playground dressed in a peach color strip shirt with 4-inches below the kneecap blue jean shorts. Shocking isn’t? Yes, I used to wear skirts, scooters, and shorts wear my hairy legs would show. Not caring at all what my body look liked. That all changed. Once I enter the cold grounds of middle school, I near what the outside world felt like. Middle school was like burning hell for me because I became the target of bullying.



"Orangutan =  Me."

 No, I wasn’t being pushed into lockers or nothing along that line. There are different types of ways to bully someone. I was verbally bullied because of my looks and hygiene. Many of the girls from my class teased me because my body was hairy. Even do I tried to ignore them and their nasty comments, it still hurt. These girls were “privileged” that their parents (mostly likely the mother) or guardian allowed them to shave, but I was on the other side. Unlike them, I was raised in a more strict, complex way. No my parents weren’t too strict, but there was certain things couldn’t do that other girls were doing. The reason why I could not shave was because my mother told me I couldn’t until a certain age. She had her reason like “once you shave it off, it will grow back tenfold”. Meaning that it will be worse than before. All and all, I obeyed her command. There were many times I thought of buying those through away shavers or using her electric shaver, but I didn’t. I don’t like getting into trouble. I also a “nickname” Orangutan. It did not phase why I was being call that, but now I understand. Orangutans are very hairy, just like me. I rather be called The Grinch than Orangutan. This is a whole another story.



"Plucking"

 Finally, My mom let me start shaving once I got to that certain age which was in high school. Let me tell you I was so pleased because I wanted to start high school with a fresh note. Here’s the kicker, even do I became shaving I still don’t wear skirts, scooters, or shorts. I have to find a way to put the pieces of me back together, but each piece holds a painful memory. No matter how many times people comment me, I ALONE have to believe I’m beautiful. I pray that my sister whose getting closer to middle NEVER have to experienced what I went through. Those girls don’t realize that they shoved into the darkness, but I fight my back up to the light.